15 Mar


Six years ago was when I felt the desire to win something for the first time. Badly.

I ran in the elections for my college organization. But the position that I initially wanted was not the one I got.

Five years ago was when I thought I was going to be one of the lucky few to land a job before graduation. I was at the last stages of recruitment for a management trainee program at my dream FMCG. But it seems that I was not meant for that job.

Three years ago was when I was no longer considered fresh from a breakup of an eight year relationship. I was no longer “newly single” as I was about to graduate from the so-called “three month rule”. But it took much longer to figure out why love was not enough.

Two years ago was when I decided that I was starved of experiences. I lived life with a pure objective of making most of the youth that I felt that I was running out of. But it turns out being carefree also comes with unexpected hard-learned lessons.

One year ago was when I was a month in of braving myself out of a dark phase of my life. I thought that making the decision to change was already enough. But I found out that getting yourself back together takes time.

The past few months have been overwhelming. And just like the last few years, I’ve started to be disappointed. Not getting the things you hope for never seems fair especially when you’ve done everything you possibly can.

Looking back, even the burdens I once considered heaviest aren’t so heavy after all. All those problems never were permanent — things always worked out. And just when the load has lightened, they were soon replaced by even greater ones.

Life stages, growing pains, millennial concerns, reasons that make us happy or even those that make us sad, people we hold on to so tightly and even our own feelings. They all change.

The impermanence of everything is a gift to us. It gives us infinite chances to learn, to grow, to be kind and to fiercely love. And we can only trust that this messy but equally beautiful life is meant to be enjoyed because everything is changing. Working itself out. For the better.  At the right time. ❤

2 Responses to “Impermanence”

  1. daebak April 2, 2016 at 9:23 am #

    ” It’s the oldest story in the world. One day you’re seventeen and planning for someday. And then quietly and without you ever really noticing, someday is today. And that someday is yesterday. And this is your life.” — One Tree Hill

    “Don’t lose your happiness on the pursuit for more.” — some rapper

  2. daebak April 3, 2016 at 1:11 am #

    more inspirational One Tree Hill quotes about life!

    Maybe you’ll get everything you wished for. The road is long:

    Sometimes it seems like you are the only one in the world who’s frustrated:

    What’s worse, not getting everything you wished for or getting it all and finding out it’s not enough:

    Fight like hell:

    This is it… so far:

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